Pain of Salvation — In the Passing Light of Day

13 Января 2017
In the Passing Light of Day

    10-й студийный альбом был выпущен 13 января 2017 года на лейбле InsideOut.

    Альбом посвящён жене Даниэля — Йоханне Иггстен. Из-за обилия любовных тем в альбоме, Даниэль называет этот альбома как Remedy Lane II.

    Альбом был задуман в 2014 году, когда Даниэль Гильденлёв был тяжело болен. Он был госпитализирован в Уппсале, Швеция, и был вынужден отказаться от тура с супергуппой Transatlantic в честь выхода альбома Kaleidoscope. Во время лечения Даниель написал песни, которые стали основной предпосылкой альбома, включая 15-минутный заглавный трек.

    Меня привезли в отделение скорой помощи с некорозом. Врачи боролись, но никакие антибиотики не помогали, а морфий не снимал боль. То, что начиналось как обычная инфекция, внезапно превратилось в реальную угрозу моей жизни.

    Приглашённые музыканты

    • Peter Kvint — бас, меллотрон и бэк-вокал на треке Silent Gold
    • Camilla Arvidsson и David Ra-Champari — скрипка
    • Anette Kumlin — гобой, английский рожок
    • Hálfdán Árnason — контрабас
    1. On a Tuesday
    2. Tongue of God
    3. Meaningless
    4. Silent Gold
    5. Full Throttle Tribe
    6. Reasons
    7. Angels of Broken Things
    8. The Taming of a Beast
    9. If This is the End
    10. The Passing Light of Day

    1. On a Tuesday

    I was born in this building
    It was the first Tuesday
    I had ever seen
    And if I live to see tomorrow
    It will be my Tuesday number
    2,119

    How life has its way
    Of turning your best suit
    The wrong way
    As if to smile and say
    "I feast on irony, my friend.
    I'm come-what-may
    And it might just be, my friend
    That this is your unlucky day
    Will you change? What would you give to stay?"

    Will I change?
    I honestly can't say
    I have no promises to trade
    For the Lord of come-what-may
    To provide me with another day
    Every promise that I make
    Is a promise I might break

    The things we humans say to survive
    The promises we make
    The lies we tell
    Vows we take
    The battles we all win to survive
    Prices we will pay
    Though we all know
    We will lose one day

    Life is a ride, they say
    But there are tickets I will never pay
    I'm afraid there'll be no vow today
    For any God of come-what-may

    You let me live
    You let me die
    For what I am right here and now
    For nothing more than all I am today
    I close my eyes...
    I do not pray

    Promises—they tempt me too
    Will I change?
    I won't be that fool
    Maybe for a day, a week
    Maybe two
    I'm a dreamer physicist
    A man-child escapist
    The face of death won't make me an evangelist
    I close my hands
    But not in prayer
    Not in prayer
    Into fists

    I lost the will

    The things we humans say to survive
    The promises we make
    The lies we tell
    The vows we take
    The battles we all win to survive
    The prices we will pay
    Though we will lose either way

    I lost the will
    I lost the way
    I haven't lost the faith
    It's just lost in me

    I lost the will...

    The things
    That we must say
    To pretend
    This passing light of day
    Is not the end
    Is not the end

    The things
    That we all say
    To be saved
    The things that we will trade
    Just give away
    For one more day
    We'll smile and tell
    Sweet lies
    To chase away
    The shadows that play
    Cast by the passing light of day

    2. Tongue Of God

    I cry in the shower
    and smile in the bed
    I cry in the shower
    and smile in the bed

    "Don't be afraid"
    I hear people say
    As if it will let me live
    if I'm just brave
    Then the clouds of death
    Would simply draw away

    I cry in the shower
    and smile in the bed

    The things that the living tell
    the not dead
    If you only heard them
    as they sound in my head
    If you only heard them
    from this bed

    What's on your mind, God?
    Spit it out!

    Tongue of God
    Lip my grin
    Run your tip over my back skin
    I'm not your kissing kin
    Tongue of God
    Lash right in
    Lick me clean on the inside
    We were never kissing kin

    God loves a jester
    God loves a joke
    God loves a jester
    God loves a joke
    I may be stubborn and headstrong but you know I mean well
    Too demanding to call up
    But too good for Hell
    So if you don't love me I might still be OK
    Still have enough time to serve a punch line

    What's on your tongue, God?
    Spit it out!
    What's that in your mouth?

    Spit!
    It!
    Out!

    Tongue of God
    Lip my grin
    Run your tip over my back skin
    I'm not your kissing kin
    Tongue of God
    Lash right in
    Lick me clean on the inside
    We were never kissing

    Tongue of God
    Lip my grin
    Run your tip over my back skin
    I'm not your kissing kin
    Tongue of God
    Lash right in
    Lick me clean on the inside
    We were never kissing kin

    I cry in the shower
    and smile in the bed
    I cry in the shower
    and smile in the bed
    I die in the shower
    I live in the bed
    I cry in the shower
    I scream in my head

    3. Meaningless

    I still smell of sweat
    Still the scent of my giving in
    Try to feel regret
    But I want it to stay on my skin

    I still fantasize
    Close my eyes to be wrong again

    Still those fuck-me eyes

    As I'm licking the palm of my hand

    How the hell
    Am I supposed to keep my self
    When you are so damn far away
    And everything feels meaningless
    And I am not mine
    How the hell
    Am I supposed to keep my self
    When you are so damn far away
    And everything feels meaningless
    And I am not mine

    I still smell of sex
    Still her taste on my fingertips
    Try to feel remorse
    But it's hard with her wet on my lips

    How the hell
    Am I supposed to keep my self
    When you are so damn far away
    And everything feels meaningless
    And I am not mine
    How the hell
    Am I supposed to keep my self
    When you are so damn far away
    And everything feels meaningless
    And I am not mine

    I need something of my own
    I need something cutting to the bone

    I need something that is mine
    If that must be guilt, then fine

    How the hell

    I wanted something nice, but fine
    This guilt is a hole but it's mine
    I wanted something nice
    This guilt is a hole but it's mine!

    4. Silent Gold

    Push me over
    Make me shiver
    You're my cover
    Let your river flow
    Flow
    Flow going high and low
    Leave me open
    Leave me fretless
    Peel my cold skin
    Make me reckless
    Run
    Run
    Run for the morning sun

    Baby, wrap me in your silent gold
    Let the saddest story be untold
    Baby, anywhere you go
    Anything you do
    Is home
    Is gold

    Take my body
    Make it holy
    As once you asked me, baby
    "How do you roll with God?"

    God?

    God is what we do now

    Baby, wrap me in your silent gold
    Let the saddest story be untold
    Baby, anywhere you go
    Anything you do
    Is home

    Baby, wrap me in your silent gold
    Let the saddest story be untold
    Baby, anywhere you go
    Anything you do
    Is home
    Is gold

    5. Full Throttle Tribe

    I never signed onto this mankind
    No color, race or creed
    felt truly mine
    Never had a country or a flag
    I never had a culture, kin or kind
    I could never really belong
    Too loud
    Too wild
    Too silent or too shy
    Too everything is what defines my mind

    I've throttled back
    I've dialed myself down
    I'm done with that
    I'll build myself a sun

    Will you follow me?
    Will you follow me?

    This will be my tribe, my family
    This will be my flag and nation
    This will be my creed, my legacy
    Will you follow me?

    With me, I promise you will see
    Things that your friends never get to see
    I'll be too much
    There will be no enough
    But we'll set flame to everything we touch
    I'll take it too far and drive it too hard
    We'll fall
    And find ourselves alone
    Down on red with no way to get home
    A reckless ride
    But it'll be worthwhile
    You'll remember it with longing and with pride
    So, will you follow me?

    This will be my tribe, my family
    This will be my flag and nation
    This will be my creed, my legacy
    Will you follow me?

    Out there
    People wait and cheer
    While I'm stuck here
    Behind this empty stare
    I turn the shower tap
    Turn it all the way up
    To burn this hole a way
    I lost a dream today
    Lost thirty years today

    This has been my tribe, my family
    This has been my flag and nation
    This has been my creed, my legacy

    Now it's only me

    This has been my tribe, my family
    This has been my generation
    This has been my life, my legacy
    Will you follow me?

    6. Reasons

    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    The reasons
    "Are you true?"
    True to me or you?
    "Are you free?"
    I thought I used to be
    "Are you mine?"
    You know I'll always be
    "Are you happy?"
    Well… Are you blind?

    "Are we through?"
    Because of me or you?
    "Are we free?"
    There's so many ways to be
    "Are you mine?"
    You know that I always will be
    "Are we happy?"
    As if anyone could ever be

    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    The reasons

    One
    Because you fill me up with disgust

    Two
    Because you wear me down

    Three
    Because you don't understand me

    Four
    Because I hate every
    Motherfucking word you say

    "Are we true?"
    To neither me, nor you
    "Are we free?"
    There're too many ways to be
    "Is this love?"
    The greatest one I've seen
    "Will it last?"
    Well, these are the reasons:
    Five
    Because I fill you up with disgust

    Six
    Because I wear you down

    Seven
    Because I don't understand you

    Eight
    Because you loathe every motherfucking word I say

    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    These are the reasons
    The reasons

    "Are we true?"
    These are the reasons
    True to me or you?

    Nine
    Ten
    Ten
    Ten
    Eleven

    7. Angels of Broken Things

    Sheets of spotless white
    Voices fading out
    Thoughts are growing dim
    As my longest night begins
    A dry taste of morphine
    Fluorescent lights all gleam
    I'm stuck beneath my mind
    This isn't my night

    Fallen angels
    Spread your wings
    Take me from this
    World of broken things

    Fallen angels
    Let your wings take me
    From this bed of thoughts
    And dreams
    Even sleep is
    Full of broken things
    I'm settling the score
    I have been here before
    Then I was in that door
    Just cursing the

    Fallen angels
    Spread your wings
    Fly me across the
    Seas of burning things
    Pills and needles
    Tears and strings
    Fallen angels
    Save me
    From these things

    Give me black
    Put nothing in my dreams

    8. The Taming Of A Beast

    To make anybody sad
    It's not that I wanna hurt myself
    No
    But some things are better broken
    Than left on the shelf
    It's the hunger and the restlessness
    That call
    A sweet vertigo of lust enticing me
    To take the fall
    So lock me up
    Just chain me down

    And build a wall
    Destroy the wolf and break his crown
    Just file his claws and pull his teeth
    'cause when I'm free
    I'm gonna taste you all
    I'm gonna falter and fall
    I wanna give up my dignity
    Give in to iniquity
    Sleep with my enemy
    Explode like a sun
    And become pure gravity
    Just pulling you into me
    It takes everything to refill me

    Sometimes I feel
    The beast gets the best of me
    The beast gets the best of me

    And don't think too much
    About the ones who'll burn
    Every Icarus has had his chance to turn

    To burn
    To run
    To fail
    To fall
    To turn

    It is not for everyone
    To touch the sun
    You must let them fly
    Just let the wild ones run

    Don't waste your precious time
    Praising the cold
    You will freeze to death you'll
    Grow so grey and old

    Just stay safely on the ground
    Just give me all
    I'll give you more
    Just let me roam
    Unlock the door
    Release the beast
    Just set me free
    Cover your eyes!

    9. If This Is The End

    Tell me my friend
    If this is the end
    For what do we make amends?
    When all has been weighed
    Measured and paid
    All aces laid
    All prayers prayed

    I've hidden your knives I've cut down your ropes
    Flushed your pills
    To save your life

    The flowers are dead
    Petals all spread
    Over the pills
    Beside my bed

    "We had a good run
    Our days in the sun
    So come what may"
    Fuck all they say
    I want to stay

    Stay

    "We had a good run
    Our days in the sun
    So come what may"
    The crap they say

    Stay

    I was born in this building
    It was the first Tuesday
    I had ever seen
    And if I live to see tomorrow
    It will be my Tuesday
    Number 2,119
    All has been weighed
    All measured and paid
    All aces laid
    All prayers prayed
    Stay

    God
    I asked for something of my own
    With a locked door
    I asked for something that I could control
    I asked for something cutting to the bone

    Hah – I asked for something
    Cutting to my bone
    Cutting to my bone

    God!
    God!

    Something of my own

    10. The Passing Light Of Day

    Though life has worn us down
    Through sun and rain
    Your eyes are still the same
    Deep blue against all grey

    "Love, don't be afraid,"
    They seem to say,
    "I'll be here for you all the way,
    My lover, my best friend."

    Do you remember us
    That first January
    You had just turned nineteen
    And I was to be twenty
    We fed on politics and poetry
    Two children fueled by unbroken dreams

    You're watching me slowly slip away
    Like the passing light of day
    Watching the colors turn to grey
    Like the passing light of day
    The passing light of day

    Better burn out, they say
    Than fade away
    Some candles last an hour
    And others one full day

    But I, I wanna be like the sun
    That steady flame that burns on and on
    And still…

    We're watching me slowly slip away
    Like the passing light of day
    We're watching the colors turning grey
    In the passing light
    A lifetime since we met that January
    Two young kids feeding on
    Politics and poetry
    Running on dreams

    Ending theme…
    Empires have fallen
    Nations have been born
    The heroes of our childhood
    Dead, forgotten or gone
    But we still stand
    All those times that I went away
    All those times that I couldn't stay
    I wish that I could give them back
    Wish that I could give them back
    All those times when I failed on you
    All those times that I turned on you
    I wish that I could take them back
    Just wish that I could take them back

    Cos all those times are still here today
    All those times they still hurt today
    All those moments return today
    All those times of "Another day"
    You're watching me slowly slip away
    Like the passing light of day
    Watching all colors turning grey
    Like the passing light of day

    I need something new
    If I could start anew
    Would it be the same?
    I need something new
    To feel whole again
    If I only knew
    I will see this through
    I need something new
    Take me home again
    If I only knew

    All those people who worried us
    All those things that were hurting us
    None of that can reach me now
    None of that can reach me now
    All the darkness we thought about
    All those things that we fought about
    None of that can touch me now
    None of that can touch me now
    Cos all that matters is here today
    All the thoughts that I think today
    Every word that we say today
    Every second alive today

    We're all burning out, fading away
    Like the passing light of day
    We're all watching the colors turning grey
    In the passing light of day
    We may wish we could run
    Just walk away
    From this passing light of day
    But at some point we need to stop and say
    It's OK
    It's OK

    "My love, don't be afraid"
    I hear you say
    "I'll be here for you all the way"
    And I just wish that I could smile and say
    "Baby, hey
    I'm in too much pain to feel afraid
    My lover
    My best friend"
    Lover
    Best friend

    I'm watching it slowly slip away
    Like the passing light of day
    Watching the colors turning grey
    In the passing light of day
    And although I wish
    That I could stay
    It somehow strangely feels OK
    It is what it is
    I'll find my way

    Through this
    Passing light…